Stuck between wanting to let you go and keeping you in my arms

I know I've said that you could 
forget about me
forget about us
forget about our
midnight laughs
and I know I've
said hundred words
that have made you cry
that I walked away
without looking back
and I am aware
that along the way
you’d find someone
who could mend 
your broken heart
and I should be happy
for you but I’m not.