April 4, 2014.
He was so cold to me. I tried telling him what’s bothering me and he told me that I always give meaning to every thing that he does. and I shut up after that, not another word said. But I decided to just let it go, then the night of April 4, 2014. I sent him what my problem was and he told me that I was becoming more of a drama queen. And we stopped talking after that day.
April 7, 2014.
I couldn't take it anymore. Earlier this day, I apologized to him in any way I can .. I made a video, sent him a message thru Facebook and I even called him just to say I was sorry and I will try to be better. :) and I promised to show him how much he means to me and that I will always fight for him.
Everything was going great, we started talking again and all that. Then later that day .. 6 pm or so I remember. His friend thought that we broke up so he told me what he was doing while we’re still dating; Little did they know that we still were. And from the moment he said it to me, I swear my heart broke into pieces and I can feel the beat of my heart jumping through my shirt. I was crying a bucket of tears, maybe 2 or more buckets of tears. Then I asked him why .. why would he do that? Then he told me .. he wanted to try if he can forget about me .. :( damn well, you forgot about me at that moment.
April 8, 2014.
I opened his twitter account and found that there aren't just 2 girls in his life but 3. and once again, my sad, broken, shattered into pieces heart .. died. :) and I feel nothing but pain and anger. </3
By 3 am, he asked if we can start again. From how we used to be the 1st time we had fell in love with one another. And being the stupid girl as I am, I said yes.
After that time, many people we’re telling me the truth that they knew what was going on but wanted to keep it from me bc they didn't want me to get hurt. :)
….
16 days today. 16th day of trying to fix what was broken, and it’s still not working out. Today, I found out that he was still talking to his so called lovies and flirts behind my back while trying to win my heart back. It was heart breaking, really.
Here’s how this day goes.
April 23, 2014.
he was gonna sleep over at his best friend’s house which happened to be my neighbor and friend too. So, by 7 am I went to my neighbor’s house where he was sleeping over at. At first I felt happy bc I haven’t kiss nor hug nor touch him for 16 days and I've been longing for him. :( And I found his phone by his hand and out of curiosity/doubt, I took his phone .. opened his inbox and boom. I saw the girl’s sweet text and I just can’t anymore.
He woke up 2 mins. after I took his phone, he went to look for it and found me on the other room reading and crying as I saw the text. He quickly snatched the phone off my hand and I gave it to him .. with full force, I slapped him. And ran away :( I ran as fast as I could bc I couldn't take the pain. :’( </3 it’s too much. this is too much :((((((((((
I ran outside and he followed me barefooted. and when I turned around, he was on his knees begging for forgiveness. So I cried and cried and he just hugged me and kissed me on my forehead and told me that he was really sorry.
I don’t even know what to do anymore. I got cheated again :( …
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