We grew apart..

but the love wore off,
didn't it?

I was no longer the heat of early morning 
showers to you,
you could no longer find me 
in the night sky, you could no longer
taste me in french toast and good coffee,
you began to kiss me with distraction
until you didn't kiss me at all, until
I was just the light you forgot to turn off
before crawling into bed: something that
kept you awake and you didn't want
to address

I tried to scrape together as much of a beautiful girl
as I could pretend to be

but after awhile,
it wasn't enough. maybe that’s why
you could just
get up and leave.