How long will I love you ..

How long will I love you?
As long as stars are above you
And longer, if I can.
How long will I need you?
As long as the seasons need to
Follow their plan.

How long will I be with you?
As long as the sea is bound to
Wash upon the sand.

How long will I want you?
As long as you want me to
And longer by far.
How long will I hold you?
As long as your father told you,
As long as you can.

How long will I give to you?
As long as I live through you
However long you say.

• Its been too long since i looked into your eyes. Its been too long since i hold you in my arms. Its been too long since i kissed those kissable lips. Its been too long since we had a comfy cuddle. I miss you. I want you here by my side.

Alam mo ba mas pinili ko nalang maging TANGA kesa mawala ka sakin. Kahit na alam kong ayaw mo na kahit na alam kong nag hahanap ka na ng iba kasi para sakin di ka ganun kadaling palitan eh para sakin hindi ganun kadaling mabuhay ng wala ka. Nararamdaman ko naring inoonti mo nalang ako para hindi ako masaktan pero sana kung ayun yung gusto mo sabihin mo na itigil na natin to nasasaktan lang ako kapag umaasa ako sayo eh. Habang tumatagal kasi tong nararamdaman ko lalo nalang sumasakit. Sabi mo mahal mo ako pero nasan ka na ngayon? 

Why do you still love him?

  

Bakit ba mahal mo parin siya? bakit sa kabila ng mga sakit na hinhatid niya sayo hindi mo siya maiwan iwan? bakit ba dami nang pwedeng maging rason para iwan mo siya di mo magawa? Tanga ka ba? o sadya lang na nagbubulag bulagan ka. Matuto ka naman na lumaban para sa sarili mo. Matuto ka naman na ipaglaban yung mga bagay na nagpapasaya din sayo. Matuto ka din naman na maging mapag-isa kahit wala siya sa buhay mo. Hindi lang pwedeng puro pagmamahal ang pinaiiral kung alam mong nasasaktan ka na. Hindi pwede laging mong dahil “eh mahal ko eh”. Ang martyr mo! Alam mong sagad sagadan na e, matuto ka naman na bitawan siya! matuto ka naman na tumayo para sa sarili mo. Matuto ka naman na mahalin mo sarili mo. You deserve to be happy and love not to hurt and cry every night. Hindi lang siya ang tao sa mundo. Magpakatatag ka. Alam ko di man ngayon at hindi din ka handa sa ngayon pero sana naman pagisipan mo. Kung alam mong wala na talaga, maging masaya ka naman at magmahal sa taong karapat dapat talaga sayo.

10 Dates with you Babe ♥

1.Book-reading Date. A date where we could just read books all day. A kind of date where we could read our favorite stories from our favorite books. Sharing our most favorite part and learning from it. A kind of date where it’s just gonna be you and me, lying on each other holding books.

2.Stargazing Date. A date where we could lie down on the grass in our backyard at night and watch those beautiful, shining stars. We’re both watching the night sky with you by my side, so close to me like an inch apart.

3.Rain Date.  A date where we could shower in the rain. Play, run and chase each other just like kids. A date where we don’t have to mind other people watching us because it’s us that matters.

4.Sleeping Date.  A date where i could sleep with you and let your arms wrap around mine. Feeling the warmth of your body against my skin. A date where we are so close that i could almost here your heart beating just for me.

5.Movie Date.  A date where we could watch our favorite movie and eat popcorn. A public date where people could notice us and how happy and comfortable we are with each other.

6.Picnic Date. A date where we could go out there in the field bringing up a sheet of blanket and a couple of snacks. A day spent only with you and the two of us alone.

7.Food Date. A date where we could eat all the foods we want. No limitations. Never even bothered to care about my figure or your figure. All we need to do is just eat and eat and eat. 

8.Carnival Date.  A very romantic date where we could go on a ferris wheel ride and have fun just like kids. A date where we could eat cotton candies and win teddy bear prizes.

9.Beach Date. A date where we could go on a beach and stay there whole day. You know, just you and me, lying on a sand talking about our dreams and watching the waves on the shore.

10.Sunset Date. A date where you and i would watch the sunset together. Sitting there as the sun sets in the west as i lean onto your shoulder talking about spending our whole life together.

You have to stay. Hold on to me and let’s make this last forever. Stop making a big deal out of little things. Our love is all that matters. Know that you are always mine and I am, for a lifetime, yours. Because all I really want is you. When you’re here with me, I can’t ask for more. Your hand holding mine is enough to make my day a lot brighter. Baby you are who I belong to

• Mas pipiliin mo pa maging TANGA at mag BULAGBULAGAN kahit alam mo na yung katotohanan na ayaw na talaga niya sayo at niloloko ka na lang niya ,kahit may relasyon pa kayong pinanghahawakan. 
• Yung tipong ikaw nalang talaga yung nag nakahawak ng mahigpit sa relasyon niyo samantanlang siya bumitaw na..
• Mas pipiliin mo pang mahirapan kesa mawala yung relasyon na pinaniniwalaan mong pang habang buhay
• di mo kayang mabuhay ng wala siya

I want a bestfriend boyfriend / girlfriend relationship ♥

Marami satin naghahangad ng isang masayang relasyon na may masayang pundasyon. Lalo na sa mga sitwasyon na ang bestfriend mo, ang matalik mong kaibigan sa mahabang panahon ay ang iyong karelasyon sa presenteng pagkakataon ngayon.

Meron naman satin dahil sa barkada kaya kayo nagkakilala. Yung iba naman aksidente lang at hindi nila talaga mismo inaasahan na darating sila sa pagkakataon na sila’y makakabuo bg isang relasyon, yung iba naman dati di nila inaakala na magiging sila kasi simulampalang sa isa’t-isa wala ng pag-asa dahil nga sa ayaw nila sa bawat isa pero tignan mo nga naman ang pagkakataon sa dinami-dami ng tao sa mundo ang taong di mo naman inaakala, hindi mo naman inaasahan, hindi mo naman pinapangrap, o sabihin na nating matagak mo ng hinahanggad, matagal mo ng hinihiling at tila para isang pikit mata nasa sitwasyon na kayo na mahal niyo ang isa’t-isa.

Pero kung ano man at kung paano man kayo nakatagpo ng lalaki o babaeng minamahal mo ngayon, saludo ako sayo, sainyo dahil nanatili parin kayong matatag at masaya at syempre nagmamahalan pero alam mo ba dapat ilevel up niyo ang turing sa isa’t-sa parang ganito.

Masarap magkaroon ng isang relasyon na hindi lang basta kasintahan ang turingan sa bwat isa. Kung di isang tunay na magkaugnay, isang matalik na kaibigan, mapagkakatiwalaang parte ng buhay at isang taong masasabi mong panghabang buhay. 

Sabi nila ang relasyon daw na ang puro turingan sa isa’t-isa ang responsibilidad bilang isang kasintahan ay may mas malaking posibilidad na madaling magkahiwalay bakit kamo? Kasi syempre may higher ang expectation niyo sa bawat isa, magkakahiyaan na mag open up sa bawat suliranin, mga bagay na pwedeng ikahiya pa katulad ng tunay na ugali kasi nga baka maturn off si boyfie, o baka mairita si girlfie kapag nalaman niya na ayoko pala sa mga bagay na gusto niya. Gets mo ba? Diba nga ang relasyon na parang straight line lang walang patutunguhan kung di isang linya lang para bang hindi na mold naging go with the flow lang sa sitwasyon.

Pero sabi nila ang relasyon parang ganito. Hindi lang basta magkasintahan pero isang tulay pusod sa bawat isa. Ano ba yung tulay pusod? Yung relasyon masasabi mong hindi lang basta girlfriend boyfriend, kung di isang matalik na mag kaibigan. Mag bestfriend, loyal, may tiwala, may responsibilidad, may dignidad, may foundation at masasabing hindi kailangan ng seryoso sa lahat ng bagay yung all in one. Hindi lang basta pang the best man ang magagampanan niya sa buhay mo kung di isang matapat na taga suporta sa bawat araw ng yung buhay.

Naniniwala kasi ako na ang magbestfriend at ang magkasintahan ay may pagkakaiba pagdating sa pagtuturingan, pakikisama sa bawat isa, sabi nga nila mas espesyal daw ang magkasintahan yung iba naman, mas naman yung magbestfriend, pero pab0gbulayan mo ito, kung ipagsama ang dalawa eh di mas maespesyal.

Let’s just stay forever like this, can we?

Sometimes I wonder why relationships are fun in the beginning but it turned out to be something different once it reached the middle part. Like something was gone and missing, and the intensity of your relationship is not that high anymore. The love is till present, maybe it’s the person behind it that was the problem. And if things stay that way, I guess that relationship has the tendency to fall out. 

I witnessed a lot of relationships who have gone through that phase and that makes me scared. Because there’s a possibility that we’ll experience that if we let things slipped in our hands. And I don’t want that to happen. Because we’re already here, we managed to walked this long distance without any serious problems and complications and it’ll be sad if all the efforts we put in this relationship will just be thrown away like trash. That’s why I’m trying not to lose grip because once I do, this relationship  will gone out of balance. 

I know it’s not easy, but let’s just stay like this forever. You know, we’re just so happy and contented with what we have and we don’t ask for more. No relationship is perfect. There’s the pointless fights and assumptions and the break-up issues. But it depends upon us if we’ll these things get in our way. It’s just a matter of understanding and respect. Relationships we’re not mostly about those things you did every time you’re together, it’s more on about having an emotional partner who will listen to you, always.

If you really love her, you’ll be patient with her.

She’s not always that sweet, cute and loving girl that loves to tease you, play with you, kiss you and do those cute stuff with you. She’s not always that nice girl who gives you that warm smile and loves to play with your hair and tickle your stomach. Because sometimes or should I say most of the times, she can be that annoying girl who will test your patience. She can be an irritating, thick-headed girl who loves to run in circles and give you mixed signals that’ll surely freak you out. She will get in your nerve and dealing with her is not that easy. Her unpredictability can be a big problem knowing that she’s not that easy to read and thinking of what you’ll do with her when she’s in that state is like a solving a puzzle, very hard. She wants you to chase after her, and if you don’t, she’ll get mad. She’ll push you one second, and then pull you the next. She can be a real problem in the ass.
But then again, if you really love her, you’ll be patient with her. In the beginning, you already know that she isn’t the easiest girl to put up with. You should already know that she’s unpredictable and that once in a while, this behavior of her will possess her, and that when this time comes, you should know what to do already. Because she’s your girl. She’s the extension of yourself so you should know her that well. If she’s mad, and she’s provoking you, then you should know how to calm yourself down because if you also let anger eats you, you’ll just fight and it won’t do you any good. If she’s sad, you should already know the right timing for everything. You know when is the right time to crack a joke, when is the right time to be serious, and when is the right time to just sit down with her and listen. She can be annoying and irritating, but at the end of the day, she can also be that sweet, loving and submissive girl. You just can’t love her sweet side, because if you really love her, you’ll also love her rough parts.

Yung alam mo na nga yung totoo pero pinipili mo nalang mag bulag bulagan..

Alam ko naman e. Ramdam ko naman. Bat kaya ang tanga ko no? 

Nararamdaman ko na nga alam ko na nga pero tinutuloy ko parin.. tama na, magising ka naman! Di ka manhid nararamdaman mo na yung katotohanan pero sige ka parin.. 

Ayaw ko na maging tanga, pero ayaw parin kitang bitawan.. Pero ayaw ko na rin masaktan kaya hanggat maari iiwasan na kita tama na.. :( last na to.. masyado ng masakit

Hindi na kita maintindihan e

Ayaw mong bumitaw ako pero patuloy ka parin nag bibigay ng rason para iwan kita..

kung mahal mo at mahal ka bakit mo isusuko?

Oo, maraming dumadating na pag subok sainyong dalawa hindi naman mawawala sa isang relasyon yan. Tandaan mo walang excitement ang isang relasyon kung walang dadating na pag subok. Dumadating kasi yan para pag tibayin kayong dalawa. Para malaman kung sino talaga yung nag papahalaga ng relasyon.. Hindi sapat na rason yung pagiging duwag hangga’t kaya mo ipag laban mo kaya mo yan! Mag pakatatag ka :). Kesa naman makita mo nalang siyang masaya sa piling ng iba..

KAPAG MAY GIRLFRIEND KA NA ..

• Tigilan ang kakachat at kakatext sa ibang babae.
• Wag na wag kang magyayaya magshot sa ibang babae.
• WAG NA MAKIPAG SEXTALK SA IBANG BABAE.
• Pag alam mong nilalandi ka ng ibang babae, PUNYETAHIN MO NA!
• Kapag badtrip gf mo, wag ka makikipagtawanan sa ibang babae. 
• Wag na wag mong gagwin sa ibang babae yung mga bagay na ayaw mong gawin ng gf mo sa ibang lalaki

BASTA PUTANGINA, PAG MAY PUTANG INANG GIRLFRIEND NA KAYO, WAG NA KAYO MAKIPAGCLOSE SA MGA PUTANG INANG MALALANDING BABAE KASI PUTANGINA, PAG KAYO AYAW NIYO YUNG ISANG LALAKI NA KAIBIGAN O MALAPIT SAMIN, LALAYUAN NAMIN PARA SAINYO KASI PUTANGINA MAHAL NAMIN KAYO KAYA PUTANGINA MAGING FAIR KAYO! 

Kung mahal ka naman talaga niyan, gagawa at gagawa yan ng paraan para lang hindi kayo magkahiwalay, eh wala eh puro siya dahilan. Maliwanag na yan na hindi ka niya mahal. Kelangan mo pa ba masaktan at magpakatanga para lang matauhan?

Nakakainis lang yung mga taong gagawa ng kasalanan sa una. Yun bang magloloko, lalandi, tapos sasaktan ka pa, yung mga ganon ba. Tapos marerealize lang nila na importante ka pala sakanila kapag nawala ka na sa kanila. Yun bang, masasabi nila na tama talaga yung sinasabi nilang, “Nasa huli talaga ang pagsisisi.” at “Marerealize mo pala talagang importante siya sayo o mahal mo pala siya kapag nawala na siya sayo.” Ugh. Nakakatanga lang.

45 THINGS A GIRL WANTS, BUT WON’T ASK FOR:

 

1. Touch her waist.
2. Actually talk to her.
3. Share secrets with her.
4. Give her your jacket.
5. Kiss her slowly.

Are you remembering this?
6. Hug her.
7. Hold her.
8. Laugh with her.
9. Invite her somewhere.
10. Hangout with her and your friends together.

KEEP READING ..
11. Smile with her.
12. Take pictures with her.
13. Pull her onto your lap.
14. When she says she loves you more, deny it. Fight back.
15. When her friends say “I love her more than you”, deny it. Fight back and hug her tight so she can’t get to her friends. It makes her feel loved.





Are you thinking of someone?
16. Always hug her and say I love you whenever you see her.
17. Kiss her unexpectedly.
18. Hug her from behind around the waist.
19. Tell her she’s beautiful.
20. Tell her the way you feel about her.

One last thing you need to do to show her you actually do mean it.
21. Open doors for her, walk her to her car - it makes her feel protected, plus it never hurts to act like a gentleman.
22. Tell her she’s your everything - only if you mean it.
23. If it seems like there is something wrong, ask her - if she denies something being wrong, it means SHE DOESN’T WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT - so just hug her.
24. Make her feel loved.
25. Kiss her in front of OTHER girls you know!

WE MIGHT DENY IT BUT WE ACTUALLY LIKE AND KINDA WANT YOU TO TICKLE US
26. Don’t lie to her.
27. DON’T cheat on her.
28. Take her ANYWHERE she wants.
29. Text message or call her in the morning and tell her have a good day at school, and how much you miss her.
30. Be there for her whenever she needs you, and even when she doesn’t need you, just be there so she’ll know that she can always count on you.

ARE YOU STILL READING THIS? YOU BETTER, BECAUSE IT’S IMPORTANT.
31. Hold her close when she’s cold so she can hold you too.
32. When you are alone hold her close and kiss her.
33. Kiss her on the cheek; (it will give her the hint that you want to kiss her).
34. While in the movies, put your arm around her and then she will automatically put her head on your shoulder, then lean in and tilt her chin up and kiss her lightly.

35. Don’t ever tell her to leave even jokingly or act like you’re mad. If she’s upset, comfort her.

REMEMBER ALL THESE THINGS WHEN YOU ARE WITH HER NEXT ..
36. When people diss her, stand up for her.
37. Look deep into her eyes and tell her you love her.
38. Lay down under the stars and put her head on your chest so she can listen to the steady beat of your heart, link your fingers together while you whisper to her as she rests her eyes and listens to you.
39. When walking next to each other grab her hand.
40. When you hug her, hold her in your arms as long as possible.

MAKE SURE SHE KNOWS SHE’S LOVED.
41. Call or text her at night to wish her sweet dreams.
42. Comfort her when she cries and wipe away her tears.
43. Take her for long walks at night.
44. Always remind her how much you love her.
45. Sit on top of her and tell her how much you love her and then bend down to her face and kiss her while you’re sitting on her.

You’ll never know when she needs just a little more love .. ♥

Ang hirap magmahal ng taong bipolar.

Yun bang ang sweet sweet sa’yo ngayon tapos mamaya biglang sobrang lamig. Yung tipong walang period. Walang smiley. Pakiramdam mo, robot yung kausap mo. Walang pakiramdam. Walang emotion. Pakiramdam mongwala siya sa mood makipagtext sa’yo. Parang tamad na tamad siya. Na pakiramdam mo hindi ikaw yung gusto niyang makausap. Tapos minsan dahil ganun siya, nag-aaway lang kayo. Minsan rin, nagkakasakitan na kayo. Pero sa kabila ng lahat ng ‘yon, nandiyan ka padin para sa kanya. Hinding hindi mo siya kayang iwan. Kasi kahit ganito siya, mahal na mahal mo parin siya.

Wag kasi be-bestfriend-nin yung taong mahal mo naman talaga.

Mas lalo mo lang pinapa-komplikado yung sitwasyon niyo. Napapalapit ka nga sa kanya, mas lalo ka naman nasasaktan pag sumasagi sa isipan mong kaibigan ka lang talaga. Kung mahal mo talaga, may iba namang paraan para mas makilala siya lalo eh hindi yung pa bestfriend-bestfriend ka pa diyan tapos magrereklamo kang hanggang kaibigan lang talaga. Sus!

The girls language. xx

• When she stares at your mouth, kiss her.
• When she pushes you or hits you like a dummy cause she thinks shes stronger than you, grab her and don`t let go.
• When she starts cursing at you trying to act all tough, kiss her and tell her you love her.
• When she`s quiet, ask her what`s wrong.
• When she ignores you,give her your attention.
• When she pulls away, pull her back.
• When you see her at her worst, tell her she`s beautiful.
• When you see her start crying, just hold her and don`t say a word.
• When you see her walking, sneak up and hug her waist from behind.
• When she`s scared, protect her and make her feel safe with you.
• When she steals your favorite hoodie, let her keep it and sleep with it for a night. 
• When she teases you, tease her back and make her laugh.
• When she doesn`t answer for a long time, reassure her that everything is okay.
• When she looks at you with doubt, back yourself up.
• When she says that she loves you, she really does more than you can understand.
• When she grabs at your hands, hold hers and play with her fingers.
• When she bumps into you, bump into her back and make her laugh.
• When she tells you a secret, keep it safe and untold.
• When she looks at you in your eyes, don`t look away until she does.
• When she says it`s over, she still wants you to be hers.

KASI BOYS..

• Dapat siya lang
• Dapat hindi kana kumakausap ng kung sino sinong babae.
• Dapat sa kanya lang yung 100% ng atensyon mo.
• Dapat hindi mo siya pinipilit sa mga ayaw nya.
• Dapat siya lang talaga para hindi sya nag tatampo sayo bigla.
• Dapat hindi ka gagawa ng ikaseselos nya.
• Dapat kung may gagawin kang kalokohan siguraduhin mong hindi ka talaga nya mahuhuli. Mas magaling pa yan mag imbistiga sa mga pulis.
• Dapat hindi mo sya niloloko.
• Dapat siya lang iniisip mo at mahal mo kahit magkalayo kayo.
• Siya lang dapat, siya ang dapat at siya lang talaga dapat.
• Dapat hindi mo siya ginagawang tanga.
• Dapat mahalin mo sya ng tapat dahil mahal ka nyan ng higit pa sa inaakala mo.
• Dapat mag effort ka sa kanya dahil sya kaya nyang gawin lahat basta para sayo.
• Dapat iniintindi mo rin sya kasi lagi lang din siya nandyan para sayo.
• Dapat hindi mo siya niloloko kasi sa dami dami ng nagkakagusto sa kanya ikaw at ikaw parin ang pinili nya.
• Dapat iparamdam mo sa kanya na special sya sayo kasi pinahahalagan ka nya at mahal ka niya. 

At higit sa lahat


• Dapat alam mo kung ano yung gusto at ayaw nya at kung paano mo sya lalambingin dahil gusto ng mga babae yung inaamo sila 👍👍

Mahahanap ko rin yung taong.

i.Magmamahal rin sa akin ng tapat at totoo. Yung iintindi sa mga pagkakamali ko at patatawarin ako kasi alam niyang hindi ako perpekto. Yung taong tunay na magpapakita na may halaga ang isang katulad ko.

ii.Masarap Kasama. Yung tatabihan ako sa sofa tapos yayakapin ako ng mahigpit sabay sabi ng “Mahal na mahal kita. akin ka lang ha?”. May makakasabay ako sa pagmo-movie marathon habang nag-aagawan kami sa pop corn. Tapos hahayaan kong makatulog siya sa balikat ko at pagmamasdan siya buong magdamag.

iii.Makakasama ko bumili ng damit at kung ano ano pa. Siya ung magiging stylist ko. Sa kanya ko itatanong kung bagy ba sa akin yung damit o hindi. Kahit na ako yung bibili gusto ko siya pa rin yung masusunod.

iv.May masasabihan ako ng problema ko. Siya yung magiging tagapayo ko. Sa kanya ko sasabihin lahat ng desisyon ko at itatanong ko sa kanya kung tama bang gawin ko yun. 

v.Kasabay ko matutulog. Yung kahit magkatabi kami sa kama eh hindi awkward. Kahit na alam namin ang pwedeng mangyari eh hindi namin gagawin kasi nirerespeto namin ang isa’t isa at alam naming hindi pa yun ang tamang oras para sa bagy na yun.

vi.Pagsasabihan ako kapag may mali akong nagawa.May babatok sa akin kasi mali yung ginawa ko tapos papangaralan ako na parang siya yung nanay ko. Tapos ako namn susunod sa kanya kasi alam kong may mali akong nagawa. 

vii.Hindi ako ikakahiya.Yung taong ipagyayabang ako kahit kanino. At hindi ako ikahihiya. Yung taong proud kasi ako yung nakatuluyan niya. Kahit na hindi ako perpekto ako pa rin yung pinili niya kasi nagtiwala siya sa akin at sa mga bagay na magagawa ko para sa kanya.

Minsan hindi natin maiwasang makaramdam ng takot kapag nagmamahal tayo.

Dahil tao lamang naman tayo at kung minsan ay nakakapag-isip tayo ng sobra-sobra,dumadating tayo sa puntong nakakaramdam tayo ng takot dahil sa pagmamahal natin sa isang tao,nandyan yung takot na baka masaktan tayo o yung takot na baka kulang pa rin ang pagmamahal na ibinibigay natin sa kanila.

Dahil sa mga nakaraan natin - mga nakaraan kung saan tayo ay nasaktan ng sobra, di natin maiwasang mag-isip na baka maulit uli ito sa atin o baka katulad lamang din ng nakaraan mo ang taong minamahal mo ngayon. Di mo maiwasang mag-alangan at magdalawang isip. Hindi naman natin maiiwasang maramdaman yun dahil ang gusto lamang naman nating mangyari ay magmahal tayo ng hindi nasasaktan. Pero hangga’t nagmamahal ka, dapat mong tandaan na dapat handa ka ring masaktan dahil hindi mo maituturing ang sarili mo na tunay na nagmamahal kung ayaw mong masaktan. Ganun lang yun, dapat marunong kang magsakripisyo para sa taong mahal mo.

Minsan naman ay di natin maiwasang mag-isip na baka kulang pa din ang pagmamahal na ibinibigay o ipinaparamdam natin sa taong mahal natin. May mga pangyayari talaga na dahil sa sobrang pag-iisip e masasabi mo sa sarili mo na baka kulang pa. Gusto kasi natin na labis ang pagmamahal natin na ipinaparamdam sa mga mahal natin para hindi sila mawala sa atin o para hindi sila magmahal ng iba at magsawa.

Pero kahit ano pa man yang nararamdaman mo, magtiwala ka lang. Hindi mo kelangan mag-isip ng sobra o ma-paranoid. Hangga’t alam mo sa sarili mo na nagmamahal ka ng tama,sapat na yun. 

Date someone who would rather watch your favorite movie with you then go to a party on Friday night. Date someone who will share their food with you even though you said you didn’t want any. Date someone who will warm your hands in the winter and kiss your pink nose. Date someone who will text you they love you at 2am and at 9pm. Date someone who will let you change the station in the car when they’re driving. Date someone who can make you smile when you would rather die. Date someone who makes your insides feel like you’ve just downed a bottle of vodka. Date someone who makes you better.

Things I want to do with you again.

There are tons of things I want to do with you again. There are a lot of things I want to go back to and just repeat it until I’m fed up with it. Funny but it’s true. 

1. I want you to text me every day. Your ‘Good morning’ messages, ‘Have you eaten?’, ‘What did you eat?’, and all those endless questions about what I’m doing just because you want to start a conversation with me. 
2. I want to hear your everyday mushy pick up line. The way you suddenly change your aura to a very attracted one, I still don’t know how you do that. But it works every single time. 
3. I want to go on a date with you. The simple dates that I know you already planned in your head just so won’t disappoint me. And I will also have a plan in my head cause I feel the same. 
4. I want to nervously eat in front of you on our first to fifth dates. I don’t know if you notice but it’s really nerve wracking to eat in front of the person you like. I don’t want to turn you off or something. Silly me because I know you don’t care, you actually love the way I eat. Well, everything about me. 
5. I want to receive phone calls from you. The one with endless chatting and laughing. Well, not everyday we have something to talk about, there are also long silences but I like it. It’s not the awkward silence, it’s more like a comfortable one. Like, hearing you breathe making me feel you’re close to me. And then you’ll start singing cause you don’t want me to be bored and we’ll laugh again. 
6. I want to dress up because I’m going to meet you. That feeling of trying to impress you. I don’t really care about what people say but it matters what you say, weather if I look good or not. I try to look for the clothes I’m gonna wear days before our date. And you say the same thing every time, ‘You look good no matter what you wear’. 
7. I want you to go to my house. The feeling of familiarity. When my sister see you she’s like knocking to my room telling me you’re there already. The way my mom entertain you and well, I’m sorry about my dog always barking. I guess she doesn’t like to share me to you cause she knows I like you more. 

All the things I get nervous about will just disappear because in the end we are comfortable with one another. I won’t care about my hair because you say you like me with my hair lay down or in an up do. I won’t care about what I wear or even if I’m naked because you said you love every inch of me. I won’t care about my funny gestures because you said that’s part of me you love. I won’t care if I fart, sneeze or even have bad breathe because you always remind me that I’m not perfect and you don’t care about that cause I’m human. And you love me no matter what. And I want to all these things with you again. I miss it. I want it. The things we do. The way you make me feel. All those. It’s gonna be great if we could do all these things over and over again

Hindi pa kayo nagbbreak, may kapalit ka na kagad.

Yung mga taong hindi pa nga kayo nagbbreak, may ipinalit na kagad sayo. Nakakabwisit yang mga ganyan. Yung feeling na ikaw nakakapit pa, tapos yun pala siya bumitaw na. Ang masaklap pa neto, may karga na kagad siyang iba. Hindi pa man din official ang break up mo, tapos magugulat ka nalang may iba na pala siya. Ayos no?

Sa totoo lang, hindi mo alam kung kanino ka ba mabbwisit. Dun ba sa taong mahal mo o dun sa bago niya. Depende din kase sa sitwasyon yun eh. Paano pala kung hindi naman alam ng bago niya na kayo pa pala? Paano kung katulad mo din siya na biktima ng hinayupak mong boyfriend? Sinabi sa kanya na single daw siya blah blah, tapos mismong yung bago niya din magugulat kase may isa pang girlfriend na inaaway siya dahil inagawan daw siya. Ang labo no? Magulo talaga. Hahaha.

Yang mga lalaking ganyan, hindi ko din ba alam kung saan nila nakukuha yang lakas ng loob nila para ganyanin yung mga taong nagmamahal sa kanila. Yung taong andyan lagi para sa kanila. Yung taong handa siyang ipaglaban kahit na hindi niya alam kung mayroon ba talaga siyang pinaglalaban.

Ang nakakabwisit pa na part dito, pag tinanong mo yung boyfriend, ehem correction.. yang malandi mong EX (EX kase break na nga kayo diba? Pero di mo alam. Hahaha!) kung mahal na ba niya yung isa, ang isasagot pa sayo. “EWAN KO, SIGURO.” Ayos na ayos! Hindi lang isang matinding saksak sa puso ang ginawa sayo. Para kang unti unting tinutunaw jan sa pwesto mo. Na-combo ka pre. Jan lalabas yung salitang, “Bigti na friend!” Hahahahahahaha.

Sa totoo lang, alam ko yung pakiramdam ng ipagpalit ka sa iba habang kayo pa nung bf mo. Ako na nga yung girlfriend, ako pa aagaw dun sa pangalawa? Ayos diba? Saan ka naman nakakita ng ganun? Kagaguhan.

Yang mga lalaki na yan, ang hilig ng reserba. Hindi ko din alam sa kanila kung instinct na ba nila yun na magbbreak sila nung girlfriend niya kaya kailangan na niya ng bago. Akala mo mga mauubusan ang mga mokong. Tsktsk! Haaaaaay

a letter to the little girl whose eyes resemble my own

I know. I know that it’s difficult to stomach the fact that love can be disastrous, but it is what it is, and they’re over: the days of believing that love is throwing popsicle sticks away with your lips stained with chocolate and your hand cradled in your mother’s, or that love is going to the book store that offers five books for little money, or that love is walking with someone who makes you smile so wide that your teeth could be a home for the good. Those days are stuck in the memories of the past, and I guess you’re not even permitted to take them with you.

I know that it’s difficult to look at him in the eye without thinking of how it doesn’t feel right, thinking of how it should be better — with clandestine sparks only shared within an awfully romantic stare. You want to tell him about what you thought it would be, everything else minus the stomach flips, the willing surrender, the buckle of knees. It’s not found in the way I love your cigarette-scented exhales, you wish to say. But you don’t. You don’t, because you feel like your childhood beliefs have been false. And what worst way to wake up from a daydream than being jolted out of the better moments so suddenly, so unexpectedly.

I know that your tears aren’t caused by the brown-haired boy with eyes like swirling oceans rushing past the shoreline, I know that the heavy weight inside your stomach isn’t from dread or fear of what comes next. It’s the heartache you feel that ruins a good bit of your past. No one warned you that love is such an awful vacancy, only being filled when a person does it for you. You thought you could accommodate for yourself, but it never works. Reassurances only matter when they’re from someone else’s lips — particularly from an individual who means more than the walk of earth itself.

But now you know. You know how earth-shattering romance can be. It’s pushing and pulling, a constant tug-of-war between selfish bodies desperate for affection. But you should understand that the love you knew, the love you wanted, was real as could ever be. Because it’s yours. It’s yours and nobody else’s. What greater love there is, than the one you know yourself, and have kept tightly locked in that hoping heart of yours.

i. Asphyxiation

I’d rather choke

on the memory of you

than breathe in the possibility

of someone else’s

company.

12:00 AM is never only a place for your sadness. There is so much more beauty in the hour: midnight air rattling against your windows, the blank sky darkening with moon-lit ocean blue, the promise of another day to come, the thought that someone on the other side of the planet is whispering “I love you” in the middle of breakfast, or that someone is working their way to their dreams, or that another individual has come to the concluding peak of finally achieving their lifelong goal. 12:00 AM can also be for poetry laced with new beginnings.

Please, please make it happen for you too.

HAPPY 14TH MONTHSARY TO THE ONE I LOVE.

With all the ups and downs in the past couple of months, I know deep inside, there is no one else that makes me happier than you do.  I am so lucky that you came into my life and stole my heart. You and I, being in love, always laughing, staying young and just living life. You make my life perfect just by being in it. Love was just a word until you came along and gave it meaning. You do something for me that no one ever had; you've loved me for me. You give me the most amazing feelings inside and it’s been exciting and just pure amazing.

There may be times that we fight, we argue like there’s no tomorrow, we hate each other but those were erased as we make up, hug & kiss. It just made us stronger.

Forgive me for the times when I haven’t been patient. Forgive me for not being kind at times, when my tongue has been quicker and sharper than my head or my heart. Forgive me for the times when I proudly say “I’m always right.” & forget to be humble. Forgive me for the times when I’ve been rude & for many times that I’ve been selfish. Forgive me when I get angry so easily. Forgive me when sometimes I don’t trust you. I need your forgiveness for all of these. I have made many mistakes in the first two years, but strive to take the lessons learned and apply them to the next years with the hope and desire to make this relationship last and all that it can be. I will never be perfect and I am sure I will always serve as a challenge to your love and patience.

We've been together for 14 months today! And what a crazy months it’s been. We both know it has been a rough ride. However, I don’t care how bumpy the road is as long as you’re by my side. You have brought out the best, the worst and even the hottest (lol) of me. I know we've been through a lot, with us breaking up and stuff like that. I admit that there are times that I tend to be weak and just wanted to give up, leave and forget all there is about us.

Time has flown by with all of the fun and hard times we've shared together. Although these great experiences have seemed to fly by, the memories will never be forgotten as you helped me grow up so much and put up with me when I decide to be immature.

Thank you for another wonderful month. Our 14 months together was great and they’re only going to get better. I am so excited to make new memories with you. I can’t wait to see what the future holds for us. I hope when our physical attraction slowly starts to die out, we can still hold on to all that matters. If you stopped making me laugh tomorrow, I will still love you. If you stopped being caring and loving, I would still love you.

Thank you for being in this journey with me and for trying to love me too. No matter how hard things may get for us, always remember that I do now, and always will, love you with all my heart. I don’t love you because of anything. I just love you. No amount of distance, pain, fights & differences in opinions can break our bond.

You are on my mind every second, every minute, every hour, everyday, and every single time I blink. You fill all the space in my mind and my heart. Every time I tell you I love you, I mean it like zillion times harder than the last time. Cause my feelings for you multiply every day. You make me fall for you every day, over and over again.

I am not asking for diamonds. I am not asking for the world. I am just asking for you to be forever by my side.

I am at a loss for more words, so I will just say I love you more than anything.

While I lay here waiting to hear from you, I can’t help thinking about what my life has become when you became a part of it. Waiting and wanting you has been the focus of my thoughts these days, knowing that one day, all that I have envisioned of us being together, will finally happen, even if it’s just for a moment.

You give me reason to wake up in the morning and smile. Just smile for no particular reason except the fact that you are here. As days go by I feel myself growing closer and closer and my heart is suddenly coming out of its shy spot and wanting to feel what it feels like to be loved again. I don’t ever want to lose this feeling. I don’t ever want to lose you.

When I hear your voice, it’s like a feeling I don’t want to leave; you give me comfort and joy. The sound of your voice is like my favorite love song, I can listen to it all night until it puts me to sleep. Yet, still as I continue lay here and think about everything you are to me.

Still, I just want you to know that wherever this road may take us, and how far it may be to finally get where we want to go, always know you are in my heart and in my heart is where you’ll always be. Life hasn't been this grateful to me, until there was you.

Thank you for being you. What I’d like to say next, I’d like to say to you personally.

Until then…

His greetings for our 14th monthsary. via text

" Hi yam :* goodmorning :* sorry ang corny ko. Ung instinct ko talaga ang nagising sakin para batiin ka ng HAPPY 14TH MONTHSARY. Salamat kase even though sa lahat ng kagaguhan na nagawa ko nandyan ka parin para sakin :* Tinkyu. Mahal na mahal na mahal kita Francheska Louise Sta Ana :* Hoy babae, walang permanente sa mundo. Tayo lang. HIHIHI. ILOVEYOU :* "

We grew apart..

but the love wore off,
didn't it?

I was no longer the heat of early morning 
showers to you,
you could no longer find me 
in the night sky, you could no longer
taste me in french toast and good coffee,
you began to kiss me with distraction
until you didn't kiss me at all, until
I was just the light you forgot to turn off
before crawling into bed: something that
kept you awake and you didn't want
to address

I tried to scrape together as much of a beautiful girl
as I could pretend to be

but after awhile,
it wasn't enough. maybe that’s why
you could just
get up and leave.

"They would completely wreck me but I want them so badly."

Maybe I’m just addicted to heartbreak,
to the storms that could take me, 
maybe I love the idea of being in love more than
anything else, maybe I just like danger,
kisses that could burn you, bruises 
on skins, maybe I live 
for the bite marks
love gives,

maybe it’s all how I handle my darkness
because if my mind is focused
on the lips of a lover
whose name I can’t quite remember, on
the smell of his perfume, on the sound
of his moans -

then I won’t have to remember that
I’m all alone

“If I had another heart I’d let you break that one too.”

A lot of us have built dreams with people we hoped would be with us forever only to wake up to reality that nothing is permanent in this world. Love comes and goes. People stay and leave. Life is a constant cycle of finding and losing; of making and breaking; of dying and living again. That is why we should love them right for we may never tell. We might wake up one day realizing that we already lost the people we ought to protect and love.

TAMA NA, PLEASE?

Please, tama na. Ang sakit sakit sakit na tlga ng ganto .. suko na ako, okay? :(

gets ko na hindi na nya ako mahal nung mga panahon na yun, gets ko na nagsawa sya ..
gets ko na nangaliwa sya, gets ko lahat.

Di nyo ko kailangan isa-isahin. Di nyo kailangan sabihin sakin mga nalalaman nyo bawat araw. :"( </3
Di kayo nakakatulong, lalo lang akong nasasaktan; lalo lang akong naiiyak; lalo lang akong nasisiraan ng bait.

Tama na yung sakit, please? ignorante na ako masyado. Di ko na kaya, di ko na kaya yung gantong karaming sakit. </3 di ko kaya i-take in lahat ng sinasabi nyo sakin. :'( Please ....

Make it stop. Tama na :'(

She moved on and I feel sorry for you ...

She moved on, and

I feel sorry for you,

because she thought

you were the most amazing boy ever.

If she could have any guy

in the world,

she still would have picked you.

But now, you're just

another part of her past,

a memory more faded every day.

And some day, she'll find the one

she deserves, and he will make her

the happiest girl in the world

Dead and Gone :(

I think it’s absolutely crazy how feelings can flicker so quickly, deteriorate so easily. One minute my ears are filled with the sound of your soothing voice complementing my every thought, mistake and action- then the next you plaster me with doubt, mentally suffocating me with criticism. I don’t know which is the truth and which is the lie, or what hurts more; the compliments or the suffocation. Weird isn’t it. I am not sad because your feelings changed, or that you lack understanding. No. I am sad that you are letting go of someone who was willing to change themselves into a better person. Change for you. All the care and feeling I have towards you is being thrown away. You let go of that, you let go of me. And you will never find that again. Another girl? Sure, but not the feelings I had. No matter how hard you search. Never. Giving you a chance and showing the slightest bit of affection was an ocean of effort. Appreciate me. Patience is all we needed, all you needed. But waiting seemed like a forever maze; an inescapable facade, an emotional trap. I can’t keep living in the past, the only time that’s real is now, the only time that exists is now. Our touch, our laughter, forever hugs, feelings, kisses and every depressing word I just wrote no longer exists. It’s in the past. Dead.